to všechno... s těma depresema a tak... dobrý. opravdu to odchází... chvilku sem se bál. že sem to rozkopal na furt. ale dobrý. už se zase zlobim místo smutnění a směju místo kňučení.
ještě kousek a sem venku...

vzal sem si dovolenou... na dva tejdny. (mam příliš nevyužitý a nepodaří se mi využít všechna) a vůbec nevim co budu dělat.
asi záslužný věci. třeba pojedu za babičkou. babička je nejlepší. the most beautiful soul i know, she is complete and plain of blemish. thats a feat!!

potřebuju si odpočinout. neskutečně moc. všechno mě bolí. každej pohyb mysli v rámci mého povolání je eko stressu a tlaku.
udělal sem toho plno, za ty dva roky a půl. spoustu opravdu skvělejch a krásnejch věcí. a teď to všechno zapomenu. aspoň natolik, že mi bude jedno, jestli se kdy rozvspomenu.

its a time to put things together and create some value... some value, that i (the I, the mr. !) could reflect upon. not just things, not just thoughts, not just love.
a conclusion of  age. sort of milestone. for it only feals right, to make one.
but you know... i dont think i´d mind, if i just laid about for a bit.

i met a man today, he claimed to be a wizard and man of knowledge and he lectured me about darkness. depths of a soul and about endless sorrow of self consciousness...
he was silly and tiresome, annoying , yet i pitied him.
he was so old for ventures of that sort. i cant imagine him, ever finding his way out. there was so much ahead of him to swallow. and so little poise of spirit in him, to actually take on anything real.
i know what you are thinking... and no! that man wasnt me.
he had a hat and everythink. artefacts. cat. he had it all.
sort of a simptom of this age.. you need exact equipment and apparel to become somethink. he was so real in that matter!

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learn learn learn!!!!!!! LEARN! ou do!
it´ll make you feel, that you are, and that you know.
but dont expect it to make you, you. neither should you actualy fall for the notion that you know... anythink...at all.

i dont know now, how to make this entry appear optimistitc... but it really is! :-D

im drunk! and thrilled with all the beauty out there!
great think to do, is to invite a colour to your explenations of what you see. the actual ones, not the real ones... those that painters see. those colours that come out of emotion rather than from thought.

mind! dobrý sluha, špatný pán.
its not wrong to treat a servant as your lesser... until its your servant, i guess... or atleast a servant.

dunno... and thats just allright :-)