I've got the car,
I have lessons booked for all the weekends in July.
I have the EASA Class 2 medical examination booked for the next week.
I have holiday approved for the first and the last week of august.
I'm all moved into a new house and settled.
And I find my self in high spirits.

On the 6th July, three years after I came here, if weather allows and nothing goes wrong till then, I set off on to a half a year to up to forty years long adventure.

All that remains to do is to go there and smash it.
 
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The bear is still set on the well but that wouldn't be him if he wasn't.
The bear that lives in my subconsciousness, the guardian of the well spring of ease.
He's been there since a long time ago, I'd date us some twenty years together, maybe more.
He won't roll over until a deed is done, and only very lazily he does when it is.
And done means done, no threads left lose.
But, he's not all bad. He's always there to fight for me and gives me strength and makes sure I don't fail. But when I occasionally would, he'd lick my wounds and nursed me back to health.

Couple of times that I remember, I would dream of him. He was in an icy cavern hidden by a waterfall.
In the dreams he is much much older, deranged in a painful state of madness. He still guards the well which despite the ever present ice of the cavern never freezes over. He's a vicious old animal in a battered and scared, yet still powerful frame. I come to him to kill him and he's expecting me. I sneak onto him, as if not to give him a chance to taunt me. He spots me when I step into the chamber with the well. He turns to me and roars, I reciprocate but he's much louder than I. I spring forth with ice in my heart and my fore arms buzzing heavy with anticipation of purpose (my fore arms do that).
I do not wake up then but neither do I ever remember what happens after. 

I wonder what would have to happen between now and then so that we'd fight like this.
Maybe I'll learn, maybe it's just fear of the unknown trying to break us apart.

One way or the other, we still have many healthy years ahead of our selves.
Battles to be won..