I may be a knight, yet there is so much i have to learn, before i can become a master.

nothing happens by accident.

its easy not to be affraid of failing. if you dont fail.
i have failed big time, now. i guess.

little slip now and than... yes, im still a mortal. this though, was clear disregard of sense and i let my emotions to overcome me.
i guess it was a lesson i needed. dont understand it yet, though.


fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate. hate leads to suffering.

i feared, i suffered, and im still hoping...
the force eludes me lately.
need to learn to let go. not everythink can be fixed?

i need to meditate on this some more...

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losing illusions may not seem so bad, when you lose enough of them. or is it the other way around?

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with strength comes responsibility. and that is hard...right now... so very very hard.
and they just killed qui-gon... bastards