if my dreams supply me with what i currently miss in my life, does it mean I truly love myself?

and it wasnt about sex... but there was part of it about soccer. but it was late in the morning. brain warm up procedure I call it. I´m having those quite regulary these days. It always make my brain run like while playing some action PC game. and then i wake up... it took some getting used to.
and no, im not going to write about what i miss in my life lately.

last thought for today: I was told yesterday, that i´am big, "mohutnej" he said really. by a guy that does boxing lessons i´am attending from time to time..till than, when it got to describing my stature, it was always small "drobnej" really.
i guess i´m changing a lot lately. would be nice if i finally could grow a strong beard :-D