its like with curtains. and im in the middle.
when the left curtain "little boy", covers the right curtain "old man" in the middle, it makes a dark strip from up till down.
it might be somehow like this... cause i feel and think so old, so as i act madly young.
the middle strip is cruel, on both sides.
so, by the simetry point of wiev, i could estimate, it wouldnt let go for about thirty years?
no, its stupid... i just need to cry :-D ... and im to cruel to let my selfs go. cruel on both sides. but i just shouldnt judge no one of my selfs, well i just cant help it.

curtains are bad metafor. rain would be bether... or somethink with a weather :-D

luck is i still know few thinks for sure... i wouldnt know what to do without them.