I always really liked people to do their thinking for them selves.
(Not always I suppose, but for a very long consecutive time after having left the short period when I would dabble in manipulation and controlling of what they knew and did with it. Which was over a decade ago and the resolution upon it's exit was that it's hard work that never stops with little fruit, especially with how little I relied upon others.)

Not telling people what to think. Not asking them what they are thinking and not disputing what they say or what they do (until it's in my way obviously ... I'm no bloody budha). If it's to be so that my presence is to make impact on their reality I prefer it to be with a reflection or a question rather than directions and forced imagery. I'd say that being louder to others than their own thoughts is a form of violence and that saying little towards a conclusion and leaving them time and peace to think rather then explaining has a better chance of them actually understanding things in the way things actually are. (rather than them half baking a certainty of being on the same page not to look dumb) Maybe it isn't so and it's just me.

But it always seemed the most effortless way to go being about people. And I still believe it is. But sometimes, bat shit weird stuff comes out. Say one in hundred, they'll flip af.

I also think that most of what I wrote above was just an attempt to justify using the phrase bat shit weird stuff and that they'll flip as fuk.
And I think, in a kind of a reverse psychology, it was kind off along the lines of what brought these words into my mind in the first place and since been awarded with them for a label.

We as humans really are just vessels for transporting the past into the future to give it a shape. Whether to copy the shape or deviate from it as far as imaginable or to be remembered or forgotten is well past our grasp and ability to comprehend.
And thinking that whatever we feel and think is good for else but staying alive and reproducing effectively would be foolish. But we do, so it's probably important. Since it is such a core persuasion to so many and has been for so long. I suppose that it might have been this one attribute we tend to award so exclusively as one would in it's nature, that has given us the ability of technological evolution ahead of anyone else. The attribute being narcissism.
Understanding things. understanding the universe. That's the only thing that technology gives us. better maths = better technology and vice versa. (what came first, maths or technology?)
One might say that it also makes our lives better, but life is only as good as the worst one to compare with. And that having better life and not knowing about it doesn't mean not having a better life might well be so, but somebody knows. And this somebody decides what's better. This somebody is probably narcissistic.
There we are, learning of the universe, capable of understanding some nano-convoluted proton shit and fling probes into stars. Learning in amounts never seen before and surpassing boundaries of our own imagination. Yet still, the same dumb shits, making decisions upon narcissistic and selfish beliefs of getting ahead of the next one we envy the most, electing the stupidest leaders only to spend days and nights in self pity and hatred. Revering arrogance, as it seems the only thing that doesn't care whether it matters. Which is so fashionable! Even the actually vise poor people say that.
It would almost seam that our ability to understand the universe grows proportionately to how dumb we get as a species.
Or maybe we just proportionately elevate the standards of what's intelligent as a secies should when wielding ever so much more power.
But then again, if the purpose of our growing cognitive abilities as a species is (as I was once again driving at) us being the tool of the universe being curious about it selves, it doesn't really matter how dumb we get as long as we don't destroy our selves. At least before we create our selves a replacement.
As a species and as individuals i suppose too.

Also. I think that that low i wrote of earlier there, is in most part, if not entirely past. I don't feel like i make more sense to others and don't feel any less awkward in most social situation. But my mind is back on my side and where it can't persuade me that i actually rocked the stage it finds me reasons why it was actually good that i didn't or just find out why it didn't matter and actually let's me let go.

I haven't touched a drop either. It was somewhat an effort at points, but nothing terrible. It feels like I haven't really started with it yet. It probably is though because it was about me stopping rather then starting.